Almost May??

I can't believe April's almost over...my 40th birthday came and went (glad that's over with!) and work is getting busier and busier. May and June promise to be fairly horrid work-wise so really, I'll be glad to see July.

I think...of course that's the peak HOT time of the year so I think I'm just going to embrace it and plan on a week or two off in the pool. Maybe I'll make someone else do my job for a while instead of the other way around!!


Of course then July'll be over and school will start again mid-August. *sigh* I think I'm going to have to start chopping away again at my activities. Of course, the Scouts thing will be over Feb. 2010. I think I'm going to have to not go for the DAR Regent thing in August...I'm just really overwhelmed with everything and I'd love for someone else to take over. Frankly I'd love to just drop out of everything and take time off. I really might consider that...I feel time slipping away and I don't like that feeling.

WHOA I am so stressed out!

Ever forgot to write a check in your register? Okay, that's normal. It happens. But *I* had to forget the frickin' mortgage check!!! With the flurry of taxes and insurance junk from the sewer overflow, money's been flying in and out of our account like crazy. I haven't kept up with it very well and I paid for it.

Thank goodness we have enough to cover (barely). We get paid Friday so we just have to make it through today. OMG what a mess.

I so hate, hate, hate dealing with money. I hate numbers anyway. But I like to be correct and precise when I balance, etc. I hate dealing with it. I resent having to deal with it, quite honestly. But right now, this is the way it is. It'll be okay, it's just really hard right now.

I'm tired of doing so much. I'm wiped out. The weekend's coming and I'm not going to everything I "should" go to. TOUGH. I'll go to church and teach my SS class and sing in the choir and even get to ring the church bell. I'm glad to go there and I enjoy it. But geezus, life is getting overwhelming again and I'm tired of it being like this.

I quite literally do not have any fun things in my life besides maybe Facebook. I don't play my instruments anymore....I don't read any books....I don't even read the Bible anymore. I don't browse my vintage cookbooks for ideas. I don't cook unless forced into it by circumstance. I don't go to estate/garage sales. I don't do anything fun for me, you know?

Thing is, my life is good - I gripe, but it really is. I'm just tired of it going so fast. I'm so lucky to have a job I like (it's horribly busy right now, though) and I enjoy the Scouts and DAR, but they're busy, too. Add on trying to get laundry done (etc) and keeping up with all the mundane things....I'm beat!!

Oh well. I know things could be worse. I know that. I'm just tired of doing so much and not having the help I think I should have, and then feeling guilty for asking.

Tulsa Tea Party

I'm going!

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