Working Girl?

My brain is really fried right now. A position in church has come up, one that I thought of applying for before. Now that it's available again, I'm freaking out wondering whether to jump into the working world again or not. I know it sounds so easy to people that are "out there" in the working world already...but to someone like me, who's been out of the loop for a long time, it's a big step.

Part of me wants to stay being a stay-at-home mom, Cub Scout Leader, Choir Director, etc., which I'm really good at by the way. :) That's my identity now. Part of me wants to step out and try this. The truth? I'm a little afraid. Actually...I'm a LOT afraid! I have a huge fear of failure when it comes to "career" stuff. I guess it's because I worked my whole young life in school, then when The Big Job came after college, it was awesome...but the organization was corrupt and I ended up quitting, and I guess that just soured me on the whole idea of "work hard = be happy" thing.

And, of course, I was JUST getting over all that....I'm so happy with my life....everything's going great....busy with Scouts, church, directing choir, then BOOM! This opportunity comes up! *sigh* Of course, the money would REALLY be great....and it's only part-time....and it's flexible....and the former worker is a friend and will be there if I have questions....and I can bring Seth to work if I have to....there's really no reason NOT to except for my own fears.

So with all that...I think I'll turn in my resume, and just leave it up to God! Yikes!